Friday, September 12, 2008

longing for one

everyone has a longing to be loved by another, to have that special connection with someone but unfortunately for some of us we haven't found that someone, so its a sad lonely life filled with periods where we hit rock bottom, it happens too often and it sucks. those who have found their someone are lucky, cause sometimes i need a shoulder to cry on, they have one but i don't.

to quote three dog night "one is the loneliest number"

:'(

Thursday, September 11, 2008

alone

Where do u go when u need to be alone?

I know where I go

It’s a sanctuary where no one can come to interrupt me

Talk to me

Or even acknowledge my existence.

I love the place where I am alone

The place the rest of the world forgot

Where I can sit and look over the landscape

And ponder my existence in this world.

I cannot be sad where I go

Only content

Even if the world I am in is upside down

I am happy there

Content with life.

So I sit and ponder in this

Place that overlooks it all.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

"What is love?"

love .................. its a basic necessity, without it babies would die within in 2 weeks of birth, but its one of those things that can bite back, and bite hard. Some people fall in love and live their life with that one person till they die. This is what most of us want I'm sure, but what if they don't love you back, or you never find that love or worst of all you find love but the opportunity to peruse it never comes.

Now i don't believe love can be defined in words, but I'll give it a shot; when you see the person, just see them, it makes it the best day u have ever had, when you converse with them it makes the day that much more amazing, and when you get to spend time with them ("hang out" "chill with" ect...) you could die happy right there, i believe that is a lose translation of what love is.

Now what if love doesn't work out. (divorce, break up and for some a restraining order :P) Emotionally you could hit rock bottom and it might be a long time till you climb back up but you will eventually make it back up.

Now iv given some of my friends relationship advice, iv provided a nice and dry shoulder that was cried upon, and iv always had an open ear to anyone that wanted to talk.

From my experience with this "love" its not to much of a problem once your in love, the problem lies in becoming in love. Sometimes you find it or it finds you but what if u want to find it but cant get to it. I will refer to this case as the scavenger and i find that if you look too hard like the scavenger does you will find only false love, the scavenger will thrive on this false love for a little while, they may do some things they regret in this stage things that might even ruin there chances at true love, once the scavenger comes out of the false love they will; be sad, still thinking it was true love or they will come out of it with no regret, talk all kinds of trash about it for a little while then move on to yet more searching not realizing they are repeating what they have just come out of or they will just move on with there life.

But some will not look so hard, they will be patient and find the true love or love will find them. They don't talk about love or relationships most of the time, for most this is probably their first love and will remain there only love. These two individuals can discover one another in a million different ways; a school dance, a rave, a box social, their friends might introduce them to each other, ect ect. When they first meet they might not even like each other, but they will grow to love one another. It may be shy love where both are afraid to make the first move and when the move is made the love begins to grow.

I have learned to spot true love and false love, and i know the differences between both; False love: the 2 individuals will be all over one another, you might have to tell them to "get a room" over and over again, they will be making out in the most inappropriate places and at the most inappropriate times, if asked they will claim they are deeply in love with there partner, they may even say they have plans to get married. The odd thing is, is that this sounds like true love does it not, but its quite the opposite, i have seen these types of relationships over and over, all of which have ended shortly there after. True love; the 2 individuals will spend lots of time together, they will do activities together very often, they will rarely show public affection and when they do it will just be a tiny peck on the cheek but most of the time one of them will have their arm around he other, if you "hang out" with these 2 individuals it wont seem like they are in love, it will just seem like they are normal friends. That is all i can explain of true love, its not to hard to spot but for me its a bit hard to explain what it looks like.

But there lies a tiny problem within this true love, most will never be affected by it but some will. This problem is called the human thought process, one of the individuals will think something about the other individual, that they are cheating on them or w/e stuff like that, this thought will eat away at the relation ship sometimes destroying it, sometimes this thought will have no affect and a nice long talk will solve any problems. You have to be careful of this, like i said it might ruin the relationship.

(p.s. do u get the reference in the title?)
-Sam

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

intro

today is the day i decided to make one of these so called blogs so i can store my thought for you all to read, cause if i don't then they just get lost in the vast nothingness of the human brain. i called this thing "cupcakethoughts" not because im obsessed with cupcakes but because usually when i have these thoughts there's a cupcake near by somewhere, maybe they help me think or somethign idk lol all i know is they taste good. well let the blogging begin: